From November 30, 2002
I’m sitting at the ambulance base, waiting, as I usually do, for a call. Once again, I’m only half a crew. There is no one available to join me to make a full crew.
I’ve done this sort of thing for a decade now, first as a volunteer firefighter, and for the last seven years as a volunteer Emergency Medical Technician. I’ve seen volunteers become fewer and fewer, and those who come in new often leave just as quickly.
Volunteer means that you choose to do it. Nobody makes you. It’s a choice. I can’t imagine not volunteering to be a firefighter or EMT, perhaps it’s an inborn urge to throw myself on the bomb. Duty, I suppose, the old fashioned kind that says that I have a responsibility to the people around me, including the ones I don’t know.
I see people devote hours each week to other volunteer jobs, Scouting, childrens’ sports, candystripers. That’s super. God bless you all. But, don’t you ever feel the urge to stand between your loved ones and evil? One day, out of the blue, evil comes to call. Some folks run forward, towards the danger. Others don’t.
It doesn’t take much to be a volunteer firefighter or EMT. Some training time, some on-duty time, and a willingness to help, no matter what. All it takes is a step forward.
Evil is towers crashing down. But evil is also what scares your grandmother on her last ride to the hospital, or your brother as he sits in his wrecked, smoking car. Evil is fear, and shame, and pain and I face that on every call. The 100 year old nun, the molested four year old girl, the alcoholic, the woman giving birth… I’m there so that you don’t have to face evil alone. There’s someone to stand between you and evil, with you in your crisis.
Sometimes all I can do is hold your hand, or whisper a prayer. I can stop the bleeding. I can start a stilled heart. I can be your witness as God calls you home.
So I sit here, waiting for a call. Waiting for another volunteer to take one step forward.